Sunday, March 3, 2002 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Letty (Castille)
Elias arrives at 2:24 PM. (Arrival time is 23 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

LETTY: Good morning, Elias! Happy Sunday to you! (Elias chuckles)

ELIAS: And you also!

LETTY: Thank you, and it is, because I realized I was going to get to talk to you!

ELIAS: And what shall we be discussing this day?

LETTY: Well, my new creation, my newest expression.

ELIAS: Very well.

LETTY: Even with the last 24 hours, I've picked up that... It's more of a validation, maybe. I have created pain in my knees and at the bottom of my feet, which started a couple of weeks ago, and then this week it got a little more intensive, even like cramping. Of course, I wanted to relate it to the exercise I do sometimes, and buy knee braces and the whole thing, but I recognize I created it as a message to me that I need to pay attention.

But within that attention, what I've been going through the last couple of weeks has been... This states it perfectly: I'm going through frustration. I recognize the signal of frustration, but it wasn't until last night, or this morning actually, when you were telling Marta, when you were here, that this is a message that incorporates choice but you're not sure objectively of which manner to maneuver the energy to generate choice. That sentence spells perfectly how I've felt over the past two to three weeks.

I've recognized choices all over but I don't know how to choose anymore. All of a sudden I felt like I couldn't decide whether to put acrylic nails on my fingernails or not, as simple as that, or what to wear, or a bigger decision of having choices to go to Peru and whether I really wanted to go or not, and should I cancel because other things kept popping up, like limitations - not limitations, but other things that were the same week. So anyway, it's been very confusing until I heard this in the tape this morning and... (Sigh)

Even in my dreams, Elias, one of them had to do with I had all my family, which is very familiar, but we were scattered in different parking lots and different cars, and we were trying to get together. We two would meet and then the other ones would find the other one but then we would lose them. So all this confusion, my impression of it comes down to this: not understanding or making it difficult or complicated for myself in how to maneuver this energy.

ELIAS: And in that recognition, what is your assessment of your position now?

LETTY: Well, one of them is definitely that I'm making it more complicated so that I need to, when I recognize I think too much instead of allowing my impressions, let my intuition guide me.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: So did I answer my question on how to maneuver my energy, by paying attention to impressions instead of on my thoughts - that I analyzed, you know, in three pages? (Laughs)

ELIAS: Ha ha ha! Listening to your impressions is quite significant. Paying attention to what you are expressing to yourself in emotional communications is significant also.

Now; this is not to say that you should be ignoring your thought processes, but allow yourself to genuinely pay attention to your emotional communications and your impressions, and therefore you may allow yourself to evaluate the accuracy of your thought process and how it may deviate from the messages that you are offering to yourself in communications.

In that manner, you may more efficiently allow yourself to be generating the choices that you want and not incorporating as much confusion. Also, be remembering that you may be incorporating the no-conflict exercise. Present to yourself different scenarios within your thought process and listen to your responses. Pay attention to whether you offer yourself an emotional communication concerning a particular scenario or not.

LETTY: Oh! That is a very good exercise, Elias.

ELIAS: For at times you may be recognizing that if you are incorporating your thought processes in this manner in association with the no-conflict exercise and you are examining different scenarios of different choices, those which you do not want in genuineness shall generate an emotional communication, and many times those that generate no conflict shall not incorporate an emotional communication for it is unnecessary.

LETTY: I do recognize recently in trying to understand what I was going through that sometimes I take things too literally, like when you told us about the thought process, how it many times doesn't give us the real or the accurate information...

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: ...where the emotional does. I'm just trying to pay attention to the emotional, but yet discounting the thought.

ELIAS: Correct, and this is not the point. For as I have stated previously, you continuously generate thought. This is an automatic mechanism. It is an expression of the objective physical manifestation in this physical dimension in like manner, as I have stated previously, to your breathing. Whether you pay attention to your thoughts is not to say that they do not continue to be generated.

Now; paying attention to your communications to the exclusion of your thought process does not generate a balance. You have created this objective mechanism of thought intentionally and purposefully to be translating communications that you do offer to yourself. Therefore it incorporates a valuable function and discounting of it continuously is not a balance; but turning your attention to it exclusively is not a balance, either.

LETTY: I did get the imagery that I was out of balance yesterday. This is what I was telling myself.

ELIAS: Quite.

LETTY: Now, back to my painful episodes. Is this correct? My asthma, my impression is that I believe I have changed the way I'm now trying to get my attention, from my asthma, which I have not had for quite a period of time, and now I'm using or I've gotten other choices to get that attention? Is this part of it?

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: So my knees, back then it started because I wasn't quite still paying attention. I've just increased it to the rest of my legs and my feet?

ELIAS: Which is quite understandable. As I have expressed previously, if you are generating a signal but you are not quite receiving the message, dependent upon the importance of the message to yourself, generally speaking you do increase the signal...

LETTY: And I did!

ELIAS: ...to the point in which you turn attention and allow yourself to receive the message.

LETTY: Even my dreams have to do with the same thing, because I felt scattered in the not being able to decide.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: Elias, am I a thought-focus? (Pause)

ELIAS: No. I may express to you, political focus.

LETTY: Really!

ELIAS: This in actuality, as I have stated previously, may be closely associated with thought-focused individuals. There are expressions or qualities that are quite similar to thought-focused individuals, but there are some differences also.

LETTY: I'll investigate on that one, get more information.

ELIAS: Very well.

LETTY: This is a validation. During this past week I had my evaluation at work, and it was very interesting to me because I went in with a little bit of fear. This is a new boss and he thinks very differently from my previous boss, and I recognize I went in with fear as to what could happen. Then I created a distraction. He got a phone call and it gave me enough time to shift my perception back to the worth of myself and the outcome I wanted; then he hung up the phone and I got that wonderful evaluation.

ELIAS: And I am acknowledging of you in your accomplishment. Ha ha ha!

LETTY: Yes. I have been trying to work on noticing the shift as I'm moving, changing my perception of something, so I'm kind of playing with that.

ELIAS: And this is quite significant, Castille, for this shall be quite helpful to yourself in avoiding creating trauma.

LETTY: Well, speaking of trauma... (Elias laughs) I almost did have one with my father two weeks ago. I brought up a subject that I didn't recognize would be - or maybe I did, I don't know. At the moment I didn't think he was going to blow up the way he did; of course, I did get a little defensive too. At the same time I was trying to calm myself down, recognizing what I was doing and what I was creating and how I could change that creation, shift it. Then my brother came in and separated us and it didn't go into that.

I wasn't sure what that was about, other than I did feel that I didn't go as far as I used to when I used to get into these arguments with him. We sometimes don't see eye to eye, I recognize that, and I wasn't trying to push his buttons. But at the same time I kind of felt I created it. I don't know why he created it, but I know that I created it kind of to see the shift in me. It didn't affect me. It didn't stay like it did. I didn't feel like I got resentful.

ELIAS: Correct, and this is your opportunity to view how you may manipulate your energy and alter your perception in the moment. Even within what you view to be quite familiar scenarios and interactions you are not bound by automatic responses, but you may allow yourself the recognition of your ability to be altering your perception in the moment and therefore altering the situation and generating a different outcome.

LETTY: Wow. It was a little bit uncomfortable but at the same time it was fun. (Elias laughs)

I want also kind of like a validation. I do feel very accomplished in my allowance of this natural flow of energy. I'm trying to, in my relaxation. I'm practicing something that I kind of feel works for me, and I do have to objectively concentrate on those moments where I give myself that direction to make it more familiar to just allow that energy.

ELIAS: Yes, and I shall be validating of you, Castille, for you have incorporated tremendous movement in your expressions and have allowed yourself to genuinely examine the action of moving your attention and allowing yourself to be validating of yourself and recognizing your ability to be generating what you want and recognizing, in a manner of speaking, your own power that you incorporate, which is quite significant.

LETTY: Yes. I was talking to Cindel yesterday about how I recognize that power. Of course I've proved it when I've noticed when I make my equipment not work properly or go out of sync. But at the same time I recognize... We were talking about light bulbs, that I've been here five years and probably 80 percent of them have never been changed. I think I do give energy into my own lights (Elias chuckles), my own creation in which I also have always thought in my creating of abundance is that things last forever with me.

ELIAS: And this is yet again your noticing of evidence that you offer to yourself in validation that you are generating this type of energy, that you ARE actually creating.

LETTY: Wow. I feel taller than I am, Elias, already. (Laughs) It is so much fun.

ELIAS: These are not accidents, Castille.

LETTY: Well, speaking of no accidents, I want to talk to you about my hot flashes.

ELIAS: Very well.

LETTY: I have been manipulating my energy when I get them, especially like right now with my painful knees and legs or when I have headaches or whatever, and I try to shift it. But I was going to ask you, I believe that I get them... Because they're not consistent, they're not regular, they come and go, and some nights I may have three or four during the night and sometimes I don't think I have any. I have an impression that they're also signals to me in paying attention. One of the things I recognize, I don't think it's all the time, but many of the times when I get them I am actually judging something, somebody, myself.

ELIAS: Ah! Therefore you are allowing yourself to manipulate this expression of energy, in your terms, for a specific purpose. Quite creative, Castille!

LETTY: I enjoy them, and that was another question. I wondered if you could do a little scan on my body. My doctor wants me to come in and talk to me about options, and that's all the message I got. I know these options are about wanting to give me hormones or something, and my feeling is I recognize the huge belief system about menopause and all this stuff, and I'm not feeling it to that point. I've never read about it; I don't want to know about it. I probably will align, as I do many times, with mass beliefs that I don't objectively see, but I don't believe I need anything at this point in my life. (Pause)

ELIAS: I may express to you that I am in agreement with you.

LETTY: How would that affect an opinion?

ELIAS: I may also express to you, this is your choice, but within this present now you are not generating any physical dysfunction that may be viewed as needing to be fixed. (Chuckles)

LETTY: Thank you for that one!

ELIAS: Be remembering also, Castille, as I have expressed previously in explanation concerning what you within physical focus identify or define as menopause, this is what you have physically chosen as a physical manifestation which you incorporate at a particular point within your focus to be moving your attention to yourself and allowing for a recognition of the powerfulness of your own expression of energy individually and not in conjunction with any other individual. This is what generates these energy surges that you physically experience as heat, for you have not quite, in a manner of speaking, adjusted your expression entirely to be acknowledging and focusing your attention upon self and recognizing the expression of your individual power.

Mass beliefs are incorporated quite strongly, as you are aware, and in these beliefs there are some beliefs that are expressed quite strongly in association with your gender, concerning turning your attention outwardly to be focusing upon other individuals, specifically children. Whether you actually choose to be incorporating that action or not, the beliefs are incorporated. In this, you align with these beliefs and therefore you generate an association with them, and you generate your manifestation for a particular number of years, so to speak, in alignment with that potential associated with these roles of incorporating facilitating the emergence of a new focus.

Now; at a particular point, which is chosen by each individual, you discontinue your alignment with that potential and move your attention temporarily in a transitional expression to be focusing upon your individual expression, power, and worth. This is a transition of energy expression which you incorporate in this time framework, and this is what you generate in these physical manifestations of bursts of heat. This is actually a burst of energy in a manner of speaking, which is an expression of your own emergence - not the emergence of another focus, but your own emergence into the fullness of your awareness and your validation of self.

LETTY: That's why I've enjoyed it and felt better about myself. The beliefs add kind of a negative connotation of menopause, and I think people use it as an excuse to be in a bad mood, to be grouchy or grumpy, and I haven't felt that. It's kind of like if you're paying attention to yourself you feel better about yourself and all that power.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: So, within this shift and how we're moving into it and accepting ourselves better and understanding ourselves, the opening of our awareness - and this is just kind of like a comment - this is probably something that the perception of this has to shift, too.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: I mean, going back to other generations of how they view in a negative connotation. I look at it as very positive.

ELIAS: I may also express to you, as you continue in the movement of this shift in consciousness, this expression of this transitional period and these manifestations that you identify as symptoms shall also lessen, for the awareness of self of individuals increases and the awareness of their ability to manipulate their energy and pay attention to self and acknowledge and accept self occurs in relation to widening their awareness, and therefore this transitional expression shall not be necessary.

LETTY: Yes, I understand that very clearly because as I'm going through this, even with the belief systems being negative, I find I'm accepting myself better - or not better, I find myself accepting myself more or judging myself less.

ELIAS: Correct. I am understanding.

LETTY: Wow. Very exciting period! (Elias chuckles) I think I have been anxiously waiting for this transition.

I listened to that tape yesterday, where you were telling Marta about Isabel's focus in Damascus where she was a young man in ancient times and everything. The name Aladdin comes to me for her/him, or something similar to Aladdin. Alan? (Pause)

ELIAS: Not Aladdin, Alden.

LETTY: And I was his mother?

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: Well, Elias, I had a whole bunch of (inaudible) but I seem to lose my pages. (Elias laughs) I think I've answered... Well, you've helped me understand so much today. (Elias chuckles) Any last words of wisdom?

Maybe just a little question to you, since I have a few minutes, kind of just review again the exercise where I actually think of the different options I have and as I think of each one I will incorporate emotional communication.

ELIAS: Or not. And this is what I am expressing to you to pay attention to, for as you present each scenario to yourself, allow yourself to relax and pay attention to what you generate in response to the scenario. You may be generating an emotional communication quite promptly in relation to some scenarios. Pay attention, for this offers you information. You may also notice that if you are not generating conflict with a particular scenario that you present to yourself, you may not necessarily generate an emotional communication, which is your validation that this is what you want.

You may practice with this type of exercise in any type of expression, even in relation to what you have expressed as incorporating confusion in frustration in not allowing yourself to generate the choice of what garment you shall incorporate.

You view this type of an expression, in your measurement, as small, but it may also be an opportunity for you to practice with this exercise, which offers you a clearer recognition of how you move your attention, how you may be evaluating what you are expressing to yourself and what your communication actually is, and this offers your thought process a function which does not interfere with the communication, for the thought process is occupied in the function of generating a hypothetical scenario, so to speak, or a possible scenario.

Thusly, as you move your attention to your communications, your impressions and your emotional communication, listen and allow yourself to recognize what your response to your scenario is. You shall generate an emotional communication if the scenario incorporates conflict within you. You shall immediately identify this.

Now; also, Castille, let me be reminding you to beware of the automatic association with absolutes, for within one moment you may actually generate an emotional communication concerning a particular scenario that you offer to yourself. This is not to say that this is an absolute and unchangeable within another time framework. It is merely expressing to you that within this now this is not the direction that you choose to be engaging. But you may within another time framework readdress to that scenario and you may or may not express a different response in communication.

This also offers you a tremendous expression of freedom, for it allows you to recognize that you are not locked or bound to any one particular choice that you generate in any particular moment. You always incorporate choice. You always incorporate free will. Therefore you may choose one expression within one moment for it offers you no conflict, and within another moment you may generate a different choice or you may continue in the choice that you have expressed previously.

LETTY: I think I've been practicing that in relation to partnerships. I continue to find myself still thinking about, of course, Leezar, and I do recognize I still put too much energy, too much attention on his choices, not on me, and I'm catching myself where I can now and stop doing that. It's gotten to be more familiar that I'm noticing the attention on him instead of on me. I find myself many times at that moment wishing to start a relationship with him again, and then there are moments when I say no. I wasn't sure if that was my own doubt of myself or maybe because, as you said, I am giving myself freedom that maybe at that moment I don't want to and in other moments I do.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: The fact that I have not created it tells me what I genuinely want.

ELIAS: Correct. This is quite accurate, Castille.

LETTY: Man, that goes for anybody, because I open myself sometimes to somebody else but it's not happening. It's the acceptance of that genuine versus what I think I may want because of the belief systems in society.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: Well, you did it again, Elias! (Elias chuckles) You help me open my awareness more and more.

ELIAS: And you offer this expression to yourself quite adequately. (Chuckles)

LETTY: Thank you. Thank you so, so much!

ELIAS: You are very welcome, my friend.

LETTY: A big kiss to you.

ELIAS: And I express tremendous affection to you also, and as always anticipate our next meeting in playfulness.

LETTY: Thank you.

ELIAS: To you my dear friend, Castille, in lovingness, au revoir.

LETTY: Au revoir.

Elias departs at 3:08 PM.

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