Friday, April 16, 2004 (Private/Phone)

Participants: Mary (Michael) and Daryl (Ashrah)

(Elias’ arrival time is 18 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

DARYL: Hi! (Elias chuckles) How’s it going there?

ELIAS: As always, and yourself?

DARYL: It’s going okay, pretty well. (Elias chuckles) I want to start today with some questions for other people.

ELIAS: Very well.

DARYL: The first one: Oona saw an image of her mother and in big letters she saw “she is Hitler.” Oona is wondering if her mother is a focus of Bonn.

ELIAS: No. (Chuckles)

DARYL: In terms of impressions, can you explain what that information was?

ELIAS: That was more symbology, and in actuality, more of an expression of playfulness in offering that imagery to herself. In a manner of speaking, a type of joking with herself. (Chuckles)

DARYL: Will she understand that more when I tell her that?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: So, anything else about that?

ELIAS: Not necessarily, other than it being amusing! (Both laugh)

DARYL: I know she didn’t know quite what to make of it, so I’ll tell her that. The next one is from Allesander, and he wanted to know if the Marquis de Sade is a focus of his.

ELIAS: Observing.

DARYL: I was wondering, along those lines, I found out the Marquis was in the French army and I wondered if my focus Robert, in the army, knew him in that context.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: From Sandel: She has gotten the name Hezael and she was wondering if it was either a focus or a Dream Walker of hers.

ELIAS: Future focus.

DARYL: Do you want to give a timeframe or anything?

ELIAS: You may express that she may be investigating!

DARYL: Well, I just thought I’d try for her, you know. (Elias laughs) I know she wasn’t expecting that it would be a future focus.

For Milde, she was wondering if her focuses of Lillie Langtry and Anna Vyrubova, who is with the Romanovs, have a counterpart action between them.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: And she wanted to know if she has a future focus named Birdie Willow.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Is she in the 21st century?

ELIAS: Twenty-second.

DARYL: And is she aligned Milumet?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: All right! A lot of hits there for Milde. (Elias chuckles)

Now we’re going to go onto my stuff. I’m feeling kind of unclear about this, but did I create two more future focuses?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: One of the names I got, the first name seems clearly to be Tazel, T-A-Z-E-L.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: I got various last names, and the last one I got was Gjrohlus, G-J-R-O-H-L-U-S.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Wow! (Laughs) And he’s 41st century?

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: And he comes from the area which would be where eastern Europe meets Russia, in our terms?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: In terms of getting what he was into, I got two phrases. One, that he was a lover not a fighter, and that he explores intimacy through subjective interaction.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: The other name I got was Sara Pauley. I think it’s P-A-U-L-E-Y.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: She was 35th century and Canadian?

ELIAS: Has visited there, but is not originally from that area. In actuality, is not originally from this planet.

DARYL: (Laughs) That’s a new one! So, she is born elsewhere in this dimension and then comes to this planet and stays here?

ELIAS: For a time framework. She is what you would term to be a colonist.

DARYL: (Coughs) Excuse me. I guess that’s freaking out some part of me since I’m coughing. I thought she was going to be the normal one out of the two of those!

ELIAS: (Laughs) The individual would appear to be quite normal. It is not another species. It is an individual, as yourself, that incorporates a lineage associated with this planet, but in association with what may be termed two and a half generations as colonists upon another planet within your dimension, was born there.

DARYL: The people originally came from Earth and went there for two and a half generations...

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: ...and then she was born out of that. So she’s Earth stock.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Does she do a lot of traveling around this dimension?

ELIAS: Somewhat, yes.

DARYL: I got a phrase associated with her that she investigates the momentum of energy.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Does that have to do with traveling or is it something separate?

ELIAS: Partially, but more in association with different areas.

DARYL: Well, that’s fun! Thank you. (Elias laughs) In past focuses, I wanted to know if George Octavius Shaw Pringle is a focus of mine.

ELIAS: Observing.

DARYL: Now, I had a reaction to Awan’s focus Gladys Cherry and also her cousin, and they were also on the Titanic together. They both knew this guy, George, and Gladys later married him. Is the extent of this my observing of George, or is there some other Titanic connection also?

ELIAS: This would be associated with the observing essence role.

DARYL: That’s fine with me if I wasn’t there! (Elias laughs) My current focus Jennifer, I asked my shift-assist guys to contact her and let her know that they were available. I assume that they’ve done that?

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: I wondered if she and I have a counterpart relationship in regard to going through the Shift.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: My sense is still that she doesn’t know exactly who I am or even who the shift-assist people are in relation to her.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: This is probably off the wall, but is Eleanor Roosevelt a focus of Baruch?

ELIAS: Counterpart.

DARYL: I’ve had a couple dreams where I am merged with Lorena Hickok, my focus. What I remember of the dreams is what it’s like to be around Eleanor, and her energy seems very big. Is that a correct assessment?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Now, is she a focus of someone I know within the forum?

ELIAS: No.

DARYL: So I’m not going to figure out who she is at this point. (Elias chuckles) I’m just kind of amazed at how strong her energy is. I wake up not thinking about what it was like to be Lorena but what it was like being around Eleanor. It’s quite affecting when I am around her, I guess.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

DARYL: My focus George Sand, does she have three lifetime observing essences?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Is Michael one of those?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Do I share 47 focuses with Allard?

ELIAS: Forty-six.

DARYL: Now I’ve got some Alterversity and 11:11 things to ask you about. Is Sari, S-A-R-I, a focus of Jale at the Alterversity?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: And she’s female, right?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: I got two countries that I thought she might be from, and Jale got one. I got Indonesia and Nepal, and Jale got Sri Lanka. Is she from any of those?

ELIAS: The latter.

DARYL: Sri Lanka?

ELIAS: Yes, but has also traveled to these other areas.

DARYL: And she’s in the same timeframe with Ashrah and the rest of us?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Now for a translation of 11:11 — and if I have the pronunciation off on any of these I’d like to know, because I got them pretty fast in a row and I’m not sure I got them correctly. The first one is Gasmoe, and I think that is Ashrah.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Lillidunn, and I think that’s Oona.

ELIAS: Dune, not dun; correct.

DARYL: Aureikial, and I also think that’s also Oona.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Thomasson, and I think that’s Nanaiis.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Sorrus, and I think that’s Sandel.

ELIAS: Sorrius; yes, correct.

DARYL: There’s one I don’t have an impression for who it is. It’s Radahzo or Radayzo.

ELIAS: The latter.

DARYL: And can you tell me who that is?

ELIAS: Myranda.

DARYL: The next one is Cinatronn and I think that is Cynthia.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Cathington, which is spelled beginning with a “C,” Allard.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: And Alatonia, which I think is also Ashrah.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Quadee, which I think is Baruch.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: He got that spelled with a couple of “E”s. Is that also a valid spelling or a more valid spelling?

ELIAS: Yes, that would be more of an accurate translation.

DARYL: I got Treafi as a focus of Awan.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Velm, a focus of Patel.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: And then I got F-R-O-L-O as Cynthia, but I’m not sure if Frolo or Frulu.

ELIAS: The first.

DARYL: Great, thank you. Moving on to Ashrah. I’ve noticed, over the years as we talk, sometimes you say it as Ash-rah and sometimes you say it as Ahsh-rah, and I’m wondering why it varies like that or what’s the deal with that?

ELIAS: That would be a fluctuation.

DARYL: So it just kind of fluctuates from moment to moment?

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking.

DARYL: I mean, sometimes within the same session it goes back and forth, so...

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: So one is not more frequent than the other or...?

ELIAS: I would express to you that for the most part, your fluctuation expresses the expression of Ahsh-rah, but that is not absolutely constant. It is merely more consistent than the other.

DARYL: So Ahsh-rah is more consistent than Ash-rah?

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: I was thinking it was the other way around. (Elias chuckles) I know you discussed with Myranda about different names or whatever that also reflect the individual’s tone, and I wondered if “Lee” would be one of those in my case.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: I’ve always had a fondness for that name.

Now we’re more into the nitty-gritty part of the session. (Both laugh) And if you want to go in whatever direction that you think would be helpful for me or add something I haven’t asked for, feel free to do that.

One of the things that I’ve been noticing while I was exploring what got set in with me, in terms of squashing my expression due to fear of being killed that we’ve discussed before, I recognize that it’s within my intent and that’s why I’ve chosen to do it. But I also know as a result of that I feel like I betrayed myself throughout my life and that I continue to betray myself by not being me.

ELIAS: In what capacity?

DARYL: That I feel like I’m a coward connected with this, because I don’t have the guts to be myself and deal with the consequences because of my fear. I don’t know, I just feel like “I’m a coward” is like a truth of mine, and that kind of reverberates through my focus, including through the amount of fear I have and how I handle that.

ELIAS: My, my!

DARYL: What?

ELIAS: This would definitely NOT be an expression of gentleness! (Laughs)

DARYL: (Laughing) Well, I thought it was. I don’t know — to me, I’m doing it in a gentle manner, exploring this. I’m not saying the way I am when I’m within that is gentle at all; it’s like really trashing myself.

ELIAS: I am aware!

DARYL: But I think my exploration of it right now is gentle compared to the actions that I’ve been doing my whole life.

ELIAS: THAT I would be in agreement with.

DARYL: I know that I’ve basically felt lousy about myself my whole life and have given myself a very hard time about it.

ELIAS: But you are offering yourself an evaluation of this and of this truth, and are allowing yourself to incorporate more of an expression of freedom in attempting to risk, are you not?

DARYL: Yes. I think I’ve really turned a corner, actually, recently.

ELIAS: Contrary to many beliefs expressed with many individuals, exposure may be quite liberating.

DARYL: So, in regards to this, I know that in the past, not so much now, I’ve had identity confusion with my mother. Since I started exploring, doing things with your energy, I wondered if there were times in the past where I literally kind of took some of my mother’s energy and did stuff with that.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: But I’m not doing it any longer?

ELIAS: No.

DARYL: What I feel has changed within me recently is that I am treating myself nicer, and I’ve also started having these times where I feel great appreciation for myself and what I’m creating. It’s something I haven’t really experienced before.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) But somewhat of an enjoyable difference!

DARYL: Oh yes! (Elias laughs) It’s very nice. That is a major change that’s taken place.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: I’ve been reading some of your sessions, or was transcribing one, that had to do with expressing self. I’d thought about expressing self, what I’m expressing and not expressing, and then I transcribed the one where you’re talking to Tyne and Colleen about expressing yourself and freedom of what you want. But what you talked about expressing was appreciation of others and of self, and it seems to me that if I just allow myself to express the appreciation, I don’t need to worry about exactly what it is that I’m expressing.

ELIAS: Correct!

DARYL: I don’t need to figure out where I’m not expressing that. If I just allow this to unfold, then it will unfold.

ELIAS: Correct, yes. That is significant, for in the expression of appreciation and...

(The recording ends after 24 minutes.)

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